It’s been 2 weeks and I feel like I need to write an apology to my company and bosses for being alive.
I can’t tell if I’m being punished for coming back or being gone and in the end, it doesn’t matter. Punishment is punishment.
I’ll keep going until the day I’ve had enough. They can celebrate then.
Being the “most” hated person in your company is hard on the soul when your life outside of that place is the absolute opposite.
What causes the shift when walking through those doors? It’s hard to say.
In my personal and other jobs – life, I’m respected and admired. At this job I am despised and ridiculed.
I was told by therapist that the world they live in is polluted. It doesn’t matter who I really am, they’ll never allow anything other than the image they prefer. It benefits them in some way. The company villain.
They’ve always had one. When I leave, they’ll have another. I pitty that soul. They have no idea what they are in for…
This job, my bosses have nearly killed me. Wrecked my self-esteem/value. Made me doubt that I am worth the air I breathe.
And yet…..I’M the bad guy….